My name is Yang Xiuquan. I just graduated from an art school this year, like March this year. I majored in oil painting, but during my college I also like explore some other media works like film and photos. Right now I'm just well figuring things out. Actually I finished one college in, I'm from China. I finished one college in China and then I was, I was majored in industrial design, but I was not really good at design. So I just, I was trying, like I was, I decided that I want to be really good at it so i i went to an like uh art classroom after my graduation also i like i worked in shanghai for two years i went to that uh like art classroom uh during that time and um yeah but that's the first time I get a touch to the like drawings or this one or like oil painting and I just felt like okay I want to be an artist because well it just feels feels cool then I decided to go to the like the most famous art schools in Tokyo and I spent two years preparing for this and finally i got in one of the art schools yes that's the beginning of the story in school like when i was in school like i just uh doing uh like ordinary i buy to right then i was only need to pay for my transportation and uh things for my uh my works but then after graduation like it was also like involved some like private life thing but no I just um um yeah I don't remember how to well okay right now I'm just working for like three jobs I I tried to uh some of my works to some art competition but then I just I didn't get any good uh results and also there's some like scholarship thing uh this is uh like funding you know artists there's uh sometimes there's some like scholarship thing. This is like funding, you know, artists. Sometimes there's a limit of age. I couldn't because I was like kind of older, average. Anyway, I was older than my classmates. And then, yes. Well, anyway, I just didn't get uh get some good results and and then for a while i like you know it was all also connect to the art situation here i just think uh okay i don't want to be judged by those people i want to uh do my own thing well I was thinking right then like I want to earn a lot of money like you know like maybe being a businesswoman and have my own money and then I want to do whatever I want about art so I yeah so yeah that's what I was thinking and I just started by doing it but it was hard in the beginning yes actually uh it's uh especially after my graduation it's just become a more and more reality that being an artist becomes a more like an reality to me uh mainly because working this job like like as i said in the video before um i want to like make my make a lot of money and doing my own business let's let that but then after a while i thought okay because that's a process and requires a long time uh for example like you need to like if you're really like you decided to make money that might need 10 years or more to uh or become really And I thought, okay, I didn't want to, actually, I couldn't, I didn't want to wait that long, that much long time to get what I want. And I thought that what I really want, like I still want to create and be an artist. I guess that's the motivation. I haven't been to many art scenes, but I mean the the inequalities like I'll say it's kind of obvious because in our schools most most student the girls but in the art scene here in Tokyo most are just a male that as for the uh but i i wouldn't say like i didn't feel like direct uh discrimination from people but i guess that's because i'm more like the general environmental thing try to say like and i want to be brave but no actually um um like it's an art school feels kind of a little bit like in the, what's the word? They try to be decent. So there's no obvious discrimination. But it's the most, I just, the most thing I feel like is that I don't really get blended in like also maybe because of the age gap because I was kind of older than them and also like they well because in our school like in this our school basically everybody they just enter this university from age 18 18 And I entered that when I was 24. Yes. Maybe because of the age gap or maybe because of culture difference. And I just felt I couldn't be close with them. Yeah, I was also actually, I didn't feel good about it. And sometimes when there's kind of when there's two uh two characters and they seem to be there's a higher level one or like uh but like the we chinese uh it's not we chinese yeah but you know sometimes the discrimination exists among like ourselves um among, like, ourselves. Um, yes. And when I, when I just came, I just feel like, oh, the Japan is so, uh, so, like, so, so nice and so good and I want to be friend with, like, uh, like, I stayed in an, like, art classroom, uh, to prepare for the, go to university. And, um, there, there's also's also like a classroom, and my classmates, they are all high school students. Like, oh, I just so want to be friends. They're very cute. They do the makeup, and they are very fashionable. And I want to be friends with them. Like, I spent time on that. I mean, right I like I just try to overcome that feeling myself that when I just when I was really really young I was not even aware of that and I just felt like insisting. I think for the young like my might not my generation but my my mother time of my classmates, I think girls are really, they're actually active, but I don't know what's going to happen now, sure, because, yeah. And for the, like, for example, for the mid-career, but in my school, definitely there are more male professors than the female ones. And, oh, yes, and when we were having class, I just felt like if there are a male and female teacher in one class, and we have this presentation, and I just always feel like the male is controlling the situation uh yeah I mean because female is not that competent or because the male was really really competent but anyway it was just you know he just uh so naturally doing everything making control actually as I found out when I was in my fourth year i talked sometimes i talked with my um classmates or like other same four-year students and i talked to boys i i we would talk about the future and the boys say oh i want to have money i want to be famous they just say directly the when i talk to girls they just uh uh they say i hate this art world and i just like they they first find like they they don't talk about money and fame like that yeah i guess i heard from like also i i heard that's more like situation like girls are not that confident when it comes in career oh my god that's so long and like i haven't started doing it but but now uh i actually i was thinking about i want to be a musician especially i i was thinking about if i could be a rapper because i really get influenced by the hip-hop culture uh they put uh during my timings uh in my school like i did like you know see this and i did that but they were like i didn't have a really clear directions and when i was exchanging in uh in germany like uh my uh my my professor there like he was um uh he was like giving us this task about to write uh write about what kind of uh artists and what kind of uh field you going to be in and I was really I was I didn't get used to it by them but like maybe after when I came back I think I was really influenced with time and so my time I just heard the first hip-hop song like and I knew it but I didn't really I was interested before then but i heard a eminent song it was walking bird i feel it's really nice so i just started to listen to it then i think okay maybe i can check the lyrics and surprisingly he he was talking about uh the whole story about uh when how he raised up his daughter and like how he and like her her daughter's mother like had been fighting and they were really poor when they were young and they got stolen I was really shocked I was the first time I saw that okay you can put that in in lyrics because before then I was like listening to for example when i listen to rock rock music or pop music i'm more about uh the melody itself the music itself or about uh the lyrics most about love or something else yeah also like in a hip-hop culture it has this you know they are really they don't uh they don't mind talking about money and fame and like what they want uh therapy so i think i was also like oh wow that's that's what i want and yes so uh for in the future i was thinking about maybe i want to do the music because i'm going to do music there's a music video so um yeah i also want to be a filmmaker or something i I'm still in the process of exploring. When I really get into this society, I find it kind of actually hard to survive. So, yeah, always successful. Okay. Still, I would say being famous. As in fine art area, I've accepted the fact that you cannot be... You can be famous, but it's a real possibility that you are going to be rich. So I would say either be famous or either be... Yes, I think famous is the most important, as in successful, rich comes the fact.